]et¸mgpw tamjvSmhnsâ HtcItZicq]w a\Ênsâ a¬sNcmXn Xncn\mfambn sXfnªp h¶ncp¶p. GtXm Nnc]cnNnX `mhw.
ImWm³ AgIpÅ sNdp¸¡mc³. aoibnsænse´m? \à apänb ]ucpjw. Igp¯n cq{Zm£w. \ndw sNat¸m CcpWvStXm F¶p hyàaÃ. Xnf¡tadnb Dcpf³ angnbnWIÄ. AtcmKZrVKm{X³. hnSÀ¶ XmSn¡p aosX hnimeamb s\än¯Sw. BÀ¡pw H¶pXgpIn¯temSm³ IuXpIw tXm¶p¶ sa¿gIv. BVyXzw IeÀ¶ t\m«w. IWvSm Hät\m«¯n IÅ\msW¶p tXm¶nÃ. Fs´mcp apJ{io. ]t£, aq¡n\pw CSXpI®n\panSbv¡v FhnsStbm ZrjvSnIÄ¡v Xosc A{]m]yw F¶p tXm¶pamdv \t¶ sNdnb Hcp adpIv. hfsc kp£n¨p t\m¡nbm am{Xta AXv IWvSp]nSn¡m\mIq. Hcp ]t£, AXbmfpsS `mKyNnÓamImw. heXp Ihnfnsâ Iogä¯mbn Ffp¸w ImWm³ Ignbp¶ Xc¯n \à hen¸¯n Hcp adpIpw. AXpam{XamWv Aev]sa¦nepw A{ioIcaambn tXm¶pI. BÄ ImgvNbvs¡mcp {]nbZÀi³ Xs¶. XÀ¡tabnÃ. A{Xbv¡pWvSv ImgvNbv¡p IuXpIw.
]dªphtÃm? FhnsStbm h¨p IWvSpad¶ apJw. CSbv¡v a\Êp tNmZn¡p¶p.
Cht\m tamjvSmhv?
tNmc³?
hnizkn¡mt\ Ignbp¶nÃ.
Ct¸mÄ thsd NnecpsS cq]§Ä IqSn a\Ênsâ apät¯¡nd§n \n¡p¶p.
H¶v: kn\namcwK¯v Aev]mev]w t]cpws]cpabpw ]Whpw BÀÖn¨psImWvSncn¡p¶ \m«pImc³ bph\S³.
cWvSv: hgnsªmgpIp¶ kvss{XWkuµcyw aptJ\ kaImeo\kmlnXy¯nsâ Ben³sIm¼ntedn sRfnªncn¡p¶ bphIYmImc³.
\nemhphncnbp¶ aµlmkw Ch\p \Ãh®w CW§p¶pWvSv.
]t£, AhcpsS Alw`mhtam Xe¡\tam H¶pw (ehteiw) CÃtÃm Ch\v?
AXpsImWvSmtWm Hcp hn{]ew`w?
Hcp]t£ "Hcp tamjvSmhnsâ GIm´at\mhym]mc§Ä' F¶ Xes¡«nsemcp Xnc¡Y `mjbv¡p k½m\n¡m\pÅ hy{KXbn kmlnXyImc³ kzbw XncsªSp¯ Hcp D]m[nbmIptam CXv? F¶m A¯cw Hc\p`h¯n\p thWvSn am{Xw ip²Nn¯³ C¯cw Hcp kmlk¯n\p apXncpIbnÃtÃm? i¦IÄ DSseSp¡p¶Xpw AkvXan¡p¶XpsaÃmw a\Ênsâ hnÔy\n Xs¶.
Hmtcmtcm ktµl§fv Xs¶. AÃmsWvS´m, Zv\p ]dbz?
]ns¶, ]dªpt\m¡nbm ]gb tIm«bw A¨mbsâ apJkmZriyhpw BIrXnbpsam¶pw Hät\m«¯n Ch\p tNcp¶XpanÃ. AÃdNnÃd kmZriy§Ä h¨psImWvSv Hcmsf asämcmfmbn \ncq]n¡m³ Ignbptam? CÃtÃm? ]pdsa, D¯ctIcf¯nepapWvSpXm\pw Hcp tIm«bw ]«Ww.
ZpÀhr¯sâ Nn¯hr¯nIÄ Ccp«nse ]pIt]mse kIteShpw AXnio{Lw hym]n¨p Ifbpw F¶v Hcp IYbn \½psS IYmImc³ FgpXn¸nSn¸n¨pIgnªncn¡p¶p. AXmtemNn¡pt¼mÄ C{Xsbm¶nà a\:{]bmkw!
GXmbmepw Ių s]cpamÄ Ahcnemcpaà F¶ IYmbmYmÀ°y¯nte¡v s]mSp¶s\ a\Êv DcpWvSp sN¶p.
IÅsâ ]pdwtamSnbn {`an¨v Ahs\ c£s¸Sm³ A\phZn¡p¶Xv ]cat`mjvImhpw F¶ Imcyw AXnthKw Rm³ Xncn¨dnªp {Kln¨p.
AgI\mbmepw Afnb\mbmepw Ių Ių Xs¶. Hcp \o¡pt]m¡panà AXnÂ. tNmc\v F´p tNmc_Ôw? (Nmc\pw Hcp tNmc³ Xs¶) AXpsImWvSv Chs\ ]nSnIqSpI Xs¶. A¡mcy¯n Hcp hn«phogvNbv¡pw X¿mdsöp a\Êp kpZrVw Dd¨p Ignªp. F´mbmepw Hcp IÅ\v IÅ\mImsX aämcpamhm\mhnÃ.
Rm³ F´n\pw X¿mdmbn A§s\ \n¡pIbmWv. CXm Ah³ hcp¶p.
IÅs\ ]nSnIqSm³ \à at\m_ehpw A]mcamb CÑmiànbpw thWw. ]gb IÅ·msct¸msebà AhcpsS Ct¸mgs¯ ]n³KmanIÄ. tamjvSn¡m³ X¡h®w ssIhiw H¶pw XSªnsæn Ah·mcpsS a«pamdpw. ]ns¶ ssIbn In«nbXv De¡bmbmepw sh¨p hoin¡fbpw. FXnÀ¡m³ Hcps¼Sp¶hsc X«n¡fbm\panà Hcp aSnbpw.
hcpwhcmbvIIÄ FÃmw BtemNn¨pt\m¡nbt¸mÄ Rm\msI ]chi\pw H¶pw sN¿m³ tijnbnÃm¯h\pambnt¸mbn F¶tà ]dtbWvSq. IY FgpXp¶Xpt]mse A{X Ffp¸apÅ ]Wnsbm¶paà Hcp IÅs\ t\cnSpIsb¶Xv.
AXpsImWvSv FÃm¯n\pw ZrIvkm£nbmbn \n¡pItb \nhr¯nbpWvSmbncp¶pÅq. "icocamZyw Jep[À½km[\w' Fs¶ms¡btà {]amWw?
Ių XnIª Ah[m\XtbmsSbmWv ho«n\It¯¡p {]thin¡p¶Xv. Fs´mcp ipjvIm´nbmsWt¶m kz´w sXmgnen Ah\v! ]pXnb X{´§Ä D]tbmKn¨mWv XmgpXpd¡p¶Xv. CehoWmÂt¸mepw Adnbm¯ \nÈ_vZX. t\À¯i_vZwt]mepw ]pd¯p tIÄ¡p¶nÃ. ]Xnsb¸XnsbbpÅ ]mZ]X\§fn Fs´mcp {i²; Imcy£aXbpw.
F\n¡p Imcy§Ä sasÃsasà t_m[ys¸«phcnIbmWv. IÅ\pw acWhpw kmay]qcI§fmWv F¶p ]dbp¶Xnsâ s]mcpÄ F\n¡nt¸mÄ ]nSnIn«n.
Ah³ ]mZ§Ä t\À½tbmsS, ]Xps¡¸Xps¡ XdbneaÀ¯n apt¶m«p h¶psImWvSncp¶p.
S]v....S]v...S]v.... Fsâ lrZbw iànbmbn anSn¡m³ XpS§n. kzXth lrZb¯n\p \à kpJapÅ BfÃtÃm Rm³. ImeSnIfnÂ\n¶v Acn¨p Ibdn h¶ Xcn¸v tZlamkIew ]SÀ¶p Ibdn. hnd¨n«p anWvSm\pw h¿; IWvSn«p anWvSmXncn¡m\pw h¿. A¯cw Hcp kµnKv²mhØbn sXmWvSbnSdn.
kz´w ho«nemWv Ifhp \S¡m³ t]mIp¶Xv. R§fpsS tImf\n Hcp skant]mjv Gcnb BsW¶XmWv tamjvSm¡sf BIÀjn¡p¶ LSIw. kXyw]dbmatÃm ss[cyw Ahew_n¨v I®pIÄ Cdp¡nbS¨v au\w `Pn¨p InS¡pI am{XamWv {]IrX¯n DNnXw F¶ D¬abnte¡p Rm³ s]mSp¶s\ _²s¸«p sN¶ptNÀ¶p.
C\n `mKy¯n\v Bbp[§sf§m³ kao]¯pWvSv F¶p Xs¶ k¦ev]n¡pI. sh«pI¯ntbm, sImSphmtfm, hm¡¯ntbm GsX¦nepsam¶v. ]t£, AhsbSp¯p {]tbmKn¡m\pÅ Icpt¯m {XmWntbm atäm F\n¡ptWvSm? Fsâ P·kn²amb `oXn aäpÅhÀ¡p \¶mbn AdnbpIbpw sN¿mw. A¡mcy¯n F\n¡v A\ev]amb eÖbpw Pmfyhpsams¡ DsWvS¶ Imcyw Rm³ ad¨p]nSn¡p¶nÃ. `mcybvs¡¶Ã Ip«nIÄ¡pw AbÂ]¡¡mÀ¡pt]mepadnbmaXv. "amjv hà sIWnbnepw sN¶p NmSp¶ptWvSm F¶p kq£n¡W'sa¶v AbÂhmknIÄ ]ecpw Xcw In«pt¼msgms¡ `mcysbbpw a¡sfbpw DZvt_m[n¸n¡pambncp¶p. A¡mcyw AhnsS \n¡s«.
\ap¡v IÅs\ ]n´pScpIbtà thWvSXv?
BZyw Ah³ Iuie]qÀhw ]n³hmXn Xpd¶v AI¯p IS¡m\mWv {ian¨sX¶p ]dªphtÃm? AXpIWvSt¸mtg Fsâ lrZbw ]mXn]nfÀ¶pt]mbn F¶pw ]dªp.
Hä sR¡n\v FÃm apdnIfnepw t]mÀ¨nepw shfnbnepw kIe_Ä_pIfpw Hcpan¨p sXfnbp¶ kzn¨n H¶p sR¡nt\m¡nbmtem F¶p Rm³ \ncq]n¨p. ^eapWvSmbnÃ. ]pdsa Øm]n¨ncn¡p¶ aoäÀ Xpd¶v sabn³ kzn¨v Hm^v sNbvXpIgnªncn¡Ww Ah³.
Fs´mcmkq{XnXamb Hm¸tdj³!
C\n c£sbm¶panÃ.
a\Êv Bi¦bpsS B[nbn InS¶v ]pgp§n. sXmWvS CSdp¶Xpw ssIImepIÄ Iq«nbnSn¡p¶Xpw izmkKXn Iotgm«p t]mIp¶Xpw Ah³ AdnbmXncn¡p¶Xn\v F\n¡p ITn\ambn Bbmks¸tSWvSnh¶p. Rm³ kq{X¯n incÊpbÀ¯msX CSwI®n«v ASp¯ I«nente¡p t\m¡n. `mcybpw a¡fpw hetXmcw sNcnªv H¶padnbmsX kkpJw InS¶pd§pIbmWv. AhÀ¡p \n{Zm`wKw hcpt¯WvSXptWvSm? Rm³ Nn´n¨p. AhÀ DWÀ¶ns«´p^ew? shdpsX H¨bpw _lfhpw DWvSm¡nbm AbmÄ ]ns¶ Fs´´p sNbvtX¡nÃ! KmV\n{ZbnemWp A½bpw a¡fpw. ]eXhW Ahsc sXm«p hnfn¡m³ \mhps]m´nbXmWv. ]t£, i_vZw htctWvS? HmÀ½bpWvSv. ]t£, anWvSm³ H¡p¶nà F¶p ]WvSpÅhÀ ]dªXpt]msebmWv ØnXn. DÅv ]ns¶bpw InS¶p ]pIªp.
Ah³ {]hr¯nbn PmKcqI\mbn¡gnªp. kz´w hoSv ]q«n¯pd¡p¶ emLht¯msSbmWhÀ hmXn Xpd¶Xv. ]n¶osSÃmw A\p{Iaw IrXy\njvTtbmsS \nÀhln¡m³ XpS§n. SqÄ k©nbn kq£n¨ncp¶ Xmt¡m ]pds¯Sp¯v F{X {i²m]qÀÆamWv Ah³ hmXn Xpd¶Xv. Cu \«¸mXncbv¡v ho«pSaØ\ÃmsX aämÀ¡mWv C{X A\mbmkw thsdmcmfpsS hoSp Xpd¡m³ IgnbpI?
I®S¨p InS¶psImWvSv FÃm Zriy§fpw IuXpI]qÀÆw IWvSp sImWvSncn¡pIbmWv Rm³.
]n¶oSh³ ssIbn IcpXnbncp¶ tSmÀ¨psseäv sXfnbn¨p. AI¯msI Cfw \nemhp ]c¶p. Fsâ icocw AtXmsS Gsd¡psd \nÝeambn. AÀ²{]mW\mbn F¶p]dbp¶Xmhpw IqSpX icn (CW§pI).
XpSÀ¶v Ah³ _Uvdqan {]thin¨p. H«pw i_vZapWvSm¡msX Aeamcn Xpd¡pIbmbn. Nne Ir{Xna D]IcW§Ä D]tbmKn¨mWv \njv{]bmkw CXp km[n¨Xv.
Ct¸msg¦nepw Aev]w ss[cyw Ahew_n¨v Ahs\sbm¶p ]nSnIqSm³ Fsâ a\Êv hÃmsX XpSn¨p. ]t£, F´m sN¿pI? {]Ú\in¨hs\t¸mse kÀÆXpw I¬sh«¯p IWvSpsImWvSncn¡pI. AXmhmw hn[n! {]mW`bw DXvIWvTbpsS ]pI¡mäSn¨p Ibän DÅmsI hoÀ¸pap«n¨p.
Rm\msI A´whn«ncp¶p.
AKm[\n{ZbnemWvSXpt]mse angnIÄ Cdp¡nbS¨p. ssIImepIÄ, DSemsI, \nÝeambn Iangv¶p InS¶p. H¸w HfnI®n«v Ahsâ {]hr¯nIÄ kmIqXw \nco£n¡pIbpw sNbvXp.
hfsc IrXyXtbmsSbpw IWnit¯msSbpamWv Ah³ NpaXeIÄþZuXyw \nÀÆln¨psImWvSncn¡p¶Xv. H«pw hogvN hcp¯p¶XpanÃ. C{X Nn«bmbpw Unkn¹nt\mSpIqSnbpw D¯cmhmZnXzw \ndthäp¶ s{]m^jW Xptemw XpÑwXs¶. A\´cw Ah³ `mcybpsSbpw Ip«nIfpsSbpw B`cW§Ä, hoSp]Wn ]qÀ¯nbm¡phm³ PnÃm_m¦nÂ\n¶pw `qan]Wbs¸Sp¯n FSp¯ temWnsâ cWvSmwKUpw FauWvSv \mev]Xn\mbnc¯nsâ enIznUv Iymjv, AÃdNnÃd aäp kma{KnIÄ F¶nh ssIbnseSp¯p. ssIbn kq£n¨ncp¶ henb _mKn \nt£]n¨p.
tamjvSm¡fpsS DZya§Ä {]Xntcm[n¡s¸Spt¼mÄ Ah³ C¶tX sNbvXpIq«q F¶v BÀ¡pw A\pam\n¡m\mhnÃ. FXnÀ¡p¶hsc D·qe\w sN¿m³ t]mepw C¡q«À aSn¡nsömWv CubnsS hmbn¡p¶ ss{Iw tÌmdnIfn {]Xn]mZn¡p¶Xv.
]Whpw kzÀ®m`cW§fpw AXoh kq£vaXtbmSpIqSnbmWv Ah³ F®n¯n«s¸Sp¯nbXv. A§s\ Xm³ IW¡nepw _lp\n]pW\pw IWni¡mc\pamsW¶v Ah³ sXfnbn¡pIbpw sNbvXp.
CXn\nSbv¡v BImw£m`cnX\mbn HfnI®n«p t\m¡nbt¸mÄ IWvSImgvN Fs¶ sXsÃm¶aà hnkvab]cX{´\m¡n¡fªXv. Ių CcpssIIfnepw [cn¨ncp¶ d_À ssIbpdIÄ Ahs\ XnI¨pw kpc£nX\m¡m³ t]m¶Xmbncp¶p. tSmÀ¨nsâ shfn¨¯n AXv \£{XXpeyw Xnf§n.
F{X Bkq{XnXamb Icp\o¡Ä!
GXmbmepw F¶nse BimIpkpaw Xe\o«n. Chs\ Ibdn¸nSn¡m³ CXpXs¶ Gähpw A\ptbmPyamb kµÀ`w kphÀ®mhkcw F¶p ]dbmw. a\Êp k½X`mh¯n aqfn. ]nSn¡tSm Ahs\...
hcp¶Xp hcs« F¶p IcpXn cWvSpwIev]n¨v ]nSnIqSSm IÅs\... a\Êv Bt{Imin¨p. ]mgm¡n¡fbcpXv Cu Ahkcw.
Rm³ ]Xps¡ Xe DbÀ¯n.
]t£, Fsâ I®pIÄ ]nSªpt]mbn.
Ahsâ ssIIfn Ccp¶p Nncn XqIp¶ ssIt¯m¡v.
Fsâ I®pIÄ s]mSp¶s\ ASªp.
C\n Ahs\ IogS¡m³ Xp\nbp¶Xv AhnthIamIpw. XfÀ¨ _m[n¨t¸mÄ _p²n DZn¨p. DÅv hÃmsX Imfn.
Nne´nIsft¸msebmWv IÅ·mcpsS _p²n {]hÀ¯n¡pI F¶p t_m²yambn. hebpsS \meXncpIfpw F{XIWvSp kq£vaambpw Imcy£aambpamWv F«pImenIÄ kÖoIcn¡p¶Xv. Ccbv¡ c£s¸Sm³ Hcp ]gpXpw Ahtijn¸n¡msXþ
C{]Imcw kzbw Bizkn¸n¨psImWvSncn¡pt¼mgmWv `mcy DWcp¶Xv. I®pXncp½n angn¨pt\m¡pt¼mÄ sseäp\ns¶cnbp¶XmWv aq¸À ImWp¶Xv.
F´m aq{Xw Hgn¡m³ FWoän«v sseäWbv¡m³ ad¶pt]mtbm? F´m Cu amks¯ CeIv{Snknän _nsödnbmtam? F¶hÄ tNmZn¡m³ apXncpt¼mtg¡pw Rm³ ]Xps¡ Xncnªp `mcybpsS hmbv _eambn s]m¯n¸nSn¨p. Ft´m XIcmdpWvSv. Icnª KÔw AhÄ aW¯dnªncn¡p¶p. kwKXnbpsS Kuchw ]nSnIn«n¡gnªXmbncp¶p AhfpsS BwKyap{ZIÄ.
]Whpw s]m¶patà t]mbn«pÅq. {]mW\v B]s¯m¶pw ]nWªnÃtÃm? AXpaXn. I®pIÄ Xmgv¯n¸nSn¨p \jvSt_m[w AhÄ ISn¨nd¡n. shfnbn t\À¯ ag s]¿p¶pWvSv.
\o ]dªsXms¡ icnXs¶ F¶ AÀ°¯n Rm³ InS¶psImWvSpXs¶ Xebm«n. KmV\n{Zbv¡p A[o\\mbXpt]mse D¨¯n IqÀ¡w hen¡m\pw XpS§n. sNdp¸¡mc\v kwib¯n\v CS\evIpI h¿tÃm. {]mW³ sXm«p Ifn¡p¶nÃtÃm? AXpXs¶ alm`mKyw. \Ãh\pw A`ykvXhnZy\pw kwkvIrXNn¯\pamWv XkvIc³ F¶ Imcy¯n XÀ¡¯n\p hgnbnÃ. CXp kamizmk¯nsâ \m\mÀ°w IqSnbmWv tIt«m.
Rm³ IqÀ¡when¡nsS BtemNn¨p. Ipeo\IpSpw_ PmX\mImw CbmÄ. Ipealnabpw Ifhpw ]ckv]cw hntbmPn¡mhp¶ taJeIsfm¶paÃ. \mw hnizkn¡p¶p F¶p [cn¡p¶ F{Xtbm {]amWnamtc¡mÄ t`ZamWnh³. Pohn¡m³ aäp]mb§sfm¶pw IsWvS¯m\mIm¯XpsImWvSmImw Cu ]mX XncsªSp¡p¶Xv. DtZymKe_v[n¡ptijw h«s¨ehpIÄ¡pw Nn«n ASbv¡m\pw thWvSn ssI¡qen hm§p¶Xnt\¡mÄ F{Xtbm t`ZanXv! D¯a\mb XkvIct\mSp {]XnImcNn´ tXm¶m¯Xv aXn{`aw sImWvSmsWt¶ BfpIÄ ]dbq.
Ah³ ]WnsbmXp¡n Øew hnSm³ XpS§p¶p. Uyq«n \nÀÆln¨ IrXmÀ°X B apJ¯v Hmfw sh«p¶p. C\n thsdmcp tamjvSmhpw Cu ho«pImsc _p²nap«n¡cpsX¶ \njvIÀj Ah\pWvSv. B Dt±iyt¯msSbmhWw Xm³ {]thin¡pt¼mÄ DWvSmbncp¶ AtX ØnXnbnte¡v Ah³ hmXnepIÄ FÃmw AS¨Xv.
AXn\ptijw Ah³ apIfnte¡p angnIÄ hoin Ft´m D¨cn¨p \µn {]Imin¸n¡p¶Xpw HfnI®n Rm³ IWvSp. XpSÀ¶v H¶pw kw`hn¡m¯ a«n \S¶IepIbpw sNbvXp.
Ah³ t]mbn¡gnªpsh¶v Dd¸phcp¯nbXn\ptijamWv izmkw t\sc hogp¶Xv.
HSphn Rm³ `mcysb X«nhnfn¨pWÀ¯n. AhÄ sR«nsbgpt¶äv Dd¡¨SthmsS tNmZn¨p.t]mtbm AhÄ....? B IÅn. \½psS B`cW§fpw cq]bpw IhÀs¶Sp¯ B s]cp¦Ån....?
GtM....?
Rm\msI Hcp am{X AÔmfn¨ncp¶pt]mbn.
At¸mÄ Rm³ IWvSXv?
Mm.......
At¸mÄ FÃmw IWvSncp¶phtÃ?
Dd¡w \Sn¨p InS¶n«pWvSmhpw Ių?
FÃm IhÀ¶psImWvSpt]mIpt¼mÄ Dd¡w \Sn¨p InS¡m³ F§s\ Ignªp \n§Ä¡v?
ZpjvS³! IpSpw_\mY\mWt{X!
IjvSw!
\osb´mWo¸dtªmWvSp hcp¶Xv?
AXhfÃtÃm, Ah\mbncp¶ntÃ?
GXh³....?
At¸mgmWv ]ntÅcpWcp¶Xpw.
FÃmhcpw apdnIfpw t]mÀ¨psams¡ ]cXn t\m¡n. H¶pw \jvSs¸«n«nÃ.
At¸mÄ ]ns¶....?
}R§Ä Ccphcpw IWvSXv bmYmÀ°yt¯mSp kmayhpw tNÀ¨bpapWvSmbncp¶ Hcp kz]v\w. dnbenkt¯mSv tKm{X¨mÀ¨bpsÅmcp sdmamânIv kz]v\w.

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